I Can’t Take One More Perceptive Step

The author reflects on the concept of truth as understood by the , distinguishing it from human perception. They reveal a profound personal realization, claiming that a true Living presence comes from recognizing one's own deadness rather than clinging to a false sense of self. This leads to a transformative state, where the old self becomes a new entity. The author expresses a desire for personal awakening and urges others to seek the truth, envisioning a vision of escape from a dire existence. The overarching message emphasizes the importance of asking for the , as this acceptance is central to spiritual enlightenment.

The Three Houses of Chaos: A Personal Apocalypse Dream

A profound and moving expression of a boy on a planet in disarray and while there seeing his fathers estate, which constitutes three houses, attached somehow and how each house is in more trouble than the prior one, culminating in total chaos and debasement. In this dream the author presents a perspective that he is somehow not human, but part human and also someone else. He is saddened by the lack of situational awareness and questions the planets willingness to support such a presence. In the second part of the dream the humans are trapped between two dead enemies that were created to enhance and protect humanity, but turn out to be a savage enemy. Also represents a planet in revolt against all parties involved. It shows a horrific war where the author is somehow involved in trying to save humanity, the planet and his fathers' estate, which could be humanity itself. The entire expression lends to the idea that humanity is in trouble internally and from external constructs and forces that have gone un-noticed.

My Birth Day

On May 12, 2025, the narrator reflects on their supposed birthday, doubting the conventional beliefs surrounding birth. They express that while society insists today is their birth day, they feel untruly born. The narrator contemplates how speaking their truth could lead to misunderstandings and potential harm, as people might view their perspective as dark or delusion. They suggest that believing one is already born negates the possibility of a natural birth and highlight the disconnect between societal norms and personal perception. Ultimately, on what is celebrated as their birthday, the narrator yearns only for genuine birth, appealing to a living God for that reality.