The Gospel of Thomas, verse 2 – A Gnostic Writing
II: Coptic language – Translations by: Thomas O. Lambdin (Coptic version)
(2) Jesus said, “Let him who seeks continue seeking until he finds. When he finds, he will become troubled. When he becomes troubled, he will be astonished, and he will rule over the All.
Pandora’s Box
I was given the truth of our origin in February 2010, a couple of years after my car accident. Man made modern-day human beings answers the “Why” question; “why would God do this to us?”! This information did not come without a price tag though and a tremendous amount of responsibility. The concept of “Man Made” opened Pandora’s Box to me and once opened, I felt compelled to pull realization after realization from the box over a 14 year period.
Each new realization brought tremendous conflict and great pain to me, and I was truly alone and the only form of life on this planet pulling from the box, so I kept the thoughts and concepts to my “self” and wrote them down.
I believe many realizations were divinely inspired, as I did strongly and desperately request answers from God, through his son Jesus Christ to know what was truly going on down here on this particular planet; why all the pain and suffering, savagery, inequality and unforgiveness.
I crashed my car into a tree in April 2008 and at that time believe I was touched by the <Living God>. From that point forward I stayed clean and sober for twelve and a half years, but the deeper I reached into the box the more difficult it was to manage the feelings and emotions brought on by the thoughts of betrayal.
Approximately eight years into my sobriety I became severely depressed, and thoughts of suicide were individually pervasive. As mentioned, I went to a priest, told him what happened to me, that I was waking up with information about our true origin and that I was going to commit suicide.
He dismissed me and told me curtly that I was not special enough to have God speak to me directly. Then his body language told me that the meeting was over, and obviously did not care that I was suicidal. I believe the only thing he cared about as a human, was his accepted programmed beliefs and his sense of comfort derived from said beliefs.
With the information I was pulling from the box I felt like my “source of formed life” was being completely taken advantage of, and it was pitch black at the bottom of the box. At that stage of my presence, I could see no light and no way out for myself or humanity.
Then a great trouble and misfortune befell me and my family. Instead of walking out into a white snowy field, laying on my back, relaxing one last time and opening up both jugular veins, as I felt obliged to do, I picked up a drink, then a drug and all hell broke loose.
After that relapse I went through approximately three years of the most painful suffering I could have ever imagined. I lost every “dead thing” I had gained in my sobriety and worse than that, I destroyed my perception of “self” again, physically, mentally, emotionally and nearly killed my spirit.
I was lower than I had ever been since being placed on this planet. Most importantly I nearly destroyed the “Life of Christ” that I was created from, by extinguishing the eternal flame to truly be <Alive>.
At the end of my collapse I was sleeping on a concrete slab in one of the city parks. I could have slept in the grass, but purposefully chose the concrete, because that’s how badly I felt about myself.
I was once again saved by the branch of Life I was created from, which is The Life of Christ. With life’s help I was able to find my way out of the wilderness again. The only truth left to pull from Pandora’s Box was the thought and hope of The Dawn of a New Day for humanity, a fresh start, and a new destiny!
Not merely a chance to do it right this time along the programmed path that all human beings are forced to walk, but a brand new day, a new time line, a new path and new destiny, provided by and through the saving grace of a loving and caring <Living God> and his Son <Jesus Christ>.
With Respect and Great Intent
James – A Bud of The Reborn Branch of Life That Is Christ
Note: Since my car accident in 2008 I perceive that I have spent time with The Living God, The Living Christ, a benevolent race, Man and his people, including Lucifer and his crew and due to the foundational information I have received over the last 17 years I can provide a truthful interpretation of the important passages related to human beings in The Gospel of Thomas. Human beings won’t believe me, not appreciate the interpretations and will be angry with me, but the interpretations will be The Living God’s Truth and the acceptance of God’s truth and the truth of the Life of Christ is crucial, not only for our survival, but will spark the dawn of a New Day for Human Beings.
This was so powerful, thank you for sharing your testimony with us… God loves you, He has never left you, and He doesn’t need you to carry the world on your shoulders. (Seems as though I am preaching to myself at this point here) – Amazing how God works.. But any-who…. Jesus brings light where darkness once lived. Your pain is real, but His grace is greater.
Keep walking toward His truth, not the burdens that break you. You are not alone, and Christ’s mercy is enough.
Be Blessed and Be a Blessing…
Thanks